It is with warning and apology that I must post this. Perhaps it should stay in the deep confines of my journal, but I think it's important for people to know to stay away from the "Discoteca." Italy is the most beautiful place I've ever been, and it's Discotecas have been the most disgusting. I literally left the group so I could sit in a corner and write this. Thats all I wrote, I hope it makes sense. I'm taking a weekend in ROMA so be ready for a juicy blog on all the great sights there!
All The Brilliant Minds By Day
Like everywhere
there is a centre of waste.
A dumping ground of the
disgusting filthy minds and
truths of why young people
are losing their respect
or self-respect.
Am I one of them?
Am I really watching this?
Sitting up here in what feels
like a massive cloud of
benches, beer and
debauchery, sitting alone.
Watching the moon, hoping
you’re looking at the same one.
Watching the sweat drip off
their brows, their scents,
their bodies jolting vicariously
as false beams of light and
over saturated colors pierce
through the heavy beats we
want to call music.
How none of it
or them will ever
“slice the air”
as the poets have described it.
No matter how loud they scream
No matter how hard they try or
how soaked and fast their minds
are running, every night. Coming
home and crying that we are
utterly floored and flabbergasted
that they actually are NOT here
to make our mistakes for us, no matter
what we see during the day.
It doesn’t matter. This is NOT why
I came to this country.
“Hey kid! I speak ENGLISH!”
“Get away from me A**@^#*!”
“Wipe that look off of your face,
...you’re not in your country anymore, kid”
I refuse to live another night of
what can be found readily available
in the neighboring city. That place is
not so attractive is it? Really?
Must we be the helpless hopeless ones?
That pit about as hot as ice
and as unforgiving as a politics.
I think in the situation,
I can honestly say
that I’m beyond my years.
How tragic.
All those brilliant minds by day.
Not another night at the Discoteca.
So sad that we have to come across the
ocean to obliterate our brains and
make the same choices we were
stupid enough to make...
...back home.
“Do you wake up in the morning
and need help to lift your head?
Do you read obituaries and feel
jealous of the dead?
When a world thats full of color
fades to white and gray and black
When tomorrow terrifies you
but you’ll die if you look back
You don’t know.”
-You Don’t Know
from Next To Normal.
"if anyone finds this journal/entry laying on the ground and I’m not here, you know that there was at least one person in this gigantic club that was smart enough to hate it."
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